i don't know for how long this has been going on but i am realizing now that i've been void of any true emotion..i keep creating these situations on purpose to add some sort of conflict in my life for me to react to..but the reactions are fake..and i honestly don't care..even though maybe i should or maybe i shouldn't? idk i just feel disconnected from myself..maybe i'm depressed..no most likely..but i don't even know why..i just really don't feel like myself and that i've been putting on a front for awhile..all i've wanted to do today was cry