yeahhh

so syracuse..is pretty lame..like..theres..the carousel mall..frats(no son)..and..uhh nothing? lol theres nothing here!..just chillin is all i been doing..i guess once more of a homework load and filming/photography happens i won't be as bored

i'm reallllllllly excited for my photography class...i had to put out 600$ in photography shit though which was not cool..but im excited about everything being manual and like actual processing and darkrooms and stuff i cant waiitttt..mad its only once a week though :/..but umm yeah pretty much my studio classes..the 4 hour long ones which are film and photography are the only ones im looking forward too..

this was the most beat weekend ever

i miss my baby alot too and my friends

:(

COOLlege ya'll

sike i'm lame.

anyway it's been pretty chill. like it's only been 4 1/2 days ish..but already i've completely unpacked and settled..made a group of new friends ( not like out with the old in with the new or anything.. just new) and they're cool :)..the first day i got here and frustratedly unpacked for 4 hours before i met my roommate when she got back around 10..slept..woke up to construction..she left for band and i balled for a few hours..then my dad got me and i went to his hotel to sleep since i was woken up early as shit..since then though thank god the construction stopped..and then i went back to my dorm for a few meetings..and sleptover the hotel with my dad..chilled in his heart shaped hottub!?? woke up and bought stuff i realized i needed and he dropped me off..i cried some more..sucked it up and then started orientation stuff..it was all lame..orange blast..LAME..feel the pulse of syracuse where they show us downtown..LAMEEEEE..so i basically have just been chillin ..getttin to know the 5 new friends i made..and decorating my dorm..tomorrow classes start..but i don't have my first class until 6 so going swimming or to the mall tomorrow with the roommate since she doesn't have classes monday or friday..LUCKYYYYY..college is nice :)

i'm here

i've been busy with orientation things.

i really think i'm gonna like it here! :)

bigger update later

on my way

i'm sitting in my car on the way to college. it's bittersweet.

my gmom balled her eyes out. it ws the only time i really collapsed.
my mom showed up late and high.

life.

and..

i leave tomorrow.

oh goddddddddddd.

Countdown: 4 days!

Where the hell did the past days go?!?!?!

Countdown:10 days

I really don't know what i'm going to do without everyone. Me and Theresa wanted to go to college together forevs and we aren't and Idk if this is going to be such an easy transition as I believed in the beginning of the summer. It's just not.

can't believe how fast it went

4 years of highschool ..bam..just a memory...3 months of summer over in a week..nothing really memorable about it..about to begin 4+ year of college..i hope i can hold onto college a little longer than highschool because i'm sort of scared to begin life..but i refuse to be one of those 45 year olds still coming back and back and back just because they are scared to let go

i'm scared to be going to this college i've only seen in pictures and heard of from mike burns..i'm scared i won't like it or i'll be too overwhelmed by the size ..i'm scared i won't make friends ..i'm scared i won't do well

oh well here i come syracuse
"hope you're ready for me"

lol

likelikelike.

this post is going to sound really cocky but it's in all seriousness with the exception of some

i like can't have friends without them liking me..boys and girls..it's reallllly irritating..because i'll genuinely like someone as a friend then they confess their crush and it ruins it all..only to name a few...gwen..marie...bob..etc..

also..i am disgusted...

everyday i ride the el only to witness druggies,druggies and more druggies..i DESPISE..all forms of drugs..i feel sick in my stomach watching people high i just want to smack em all..it irks me beyond belief..this entry was pointless but those were two things on my mind