last night consisted of me + this entire bottle



which also = a really drunken mess of alicia
but also a realllllllly fun/strange night hahaha

also i really like wine now for some reason?

yesterday was alumni day..and omg i missed everyoneeeeeeeeeeeeeee so much it was so good to see people..afterwards i hungout with peoples and it was nice :)...it's thanksgiving..and i'm reading the secret..i have never been more enlightened in my life hahaha..happy thanksgiving

my heart aches.

:(

stupid lil reminders

spring semester

I just enrolled in my schedule for next semester..um most stressful thing ever? you literally sit there thinking on the spot of what to pick because by the time freshman are actually allowed to enroll almost everything we wanted is taken..but my schedule..because i'm an art student was that most classes were required..it's eh..sort of the same as this semester..same teachers..no night classes though..AND no friday classes :)..it's pending though i'm gonna go on later and maybe pick one more or switch something..but this is it as of right now

monday- 8:30-12:30 (Interconnected studios)
tuesday-12:30-1:50 (wrt 205) and (Transmedia Colloquim 2) 2-4:45
wednesday-8:30-12:30 (Art photo 2 aka Intro to color photo)
thursday-8:30-12:30( Intro to sound and image) and (Wrt 205) 12:30-1:50
friday-NOTHINGGGGG! :D

I am my priority.

i like this college. i don't know how much i want to leave anymore/ would really actually be sad now if i were too.

after reading angelas blogger..i realized..everything that was said..the promises..everything..it's just words..words dont mean anything..once you say them they disappear forever..all we had was a bunch of words

todays finally the first day i woke up and i like ...didn't care

:)

i did it to myself. i gave up everything for her. i have no true friends anymore because i pushed them all aside just for her. i gave my entire self to her. i shouldn't of because now i'm alone and upset and i brought it all onto myself. you should never have to give up your friends for someone. they should be with you and your friends. she ruined me. ruined my life. i just want everyone back. i will never EVER let someone take me over like that again. i'm over it. it will be hard because i literally revolved my life around her but i'm ready to find someone true or no one at all. i want you back theresa, and lisa, and bob, and cj, and margaret, and molly, and jessie and everyone else i dropped for you. dumb bitch. you never deserved everything i gave you. ever. i'm so sorry everybody. :( take me back friends?

well? as i lay here with tubes everywhere with nothing to do all i CAN do is think..and it gets me so sad..i was "sad" when i broke up with brian doe like a day..i'm disTRAUGHT not being with her..i thought it would get easier but its just getting harder and harder..and tomorrow is/wouldve been our 11 months and i was so excited..this is/was my first real relationship and i fell so hard in love and refuse to give it up..i don't see anybody else when i'm an old lady rockin next to me besides her..i want my leigh baby back :(

:/

it hurts and i miss her and everyone keeps telling me all this stuff like i deserve better but i know what i want and i don't care what anyone says cause no ones word overrides what my heart says so i'll wait and give her time to miss me