well? as i lay here with tubes everywhere with nothing to do all i CAN do is think..and it gets me so sad..i was "sad" when i broke up with brian doe like a day..i'm disTRAUGHT not being with her..i thought it would get easier but its just getting harder and harder..and tomorrow is/wouldve been our 11 months and i was so excited..this is/was my first real relationship and i fell so hard in love and refuse to give it up..i don't see anybody else when i'm an old lady rockin next to me besides her..i want my leigh baby back :(