ugh i have so much shit due next week and i need to get on the ball i'm slackin hardcore and it's so not mei gotta turn my animation thingy in wednesday so it has to be done by like monday morning cause mondays and tuesdays have no time for anything..a 6 page english paper which i haven't even really focused on a topic or research due thursday..and photography stuff due friday..i didn't even start thinking or shooting and have to show her what i'm working on friday..hghghdfgsgd

went home this weekend..it wasnt what i expected or at all wanted..but it was what it was..and wont dwell on it..the surgery was alright..my ass still hurts..and i sorta miss my parents but then again not

going back to philllaayyy this weekend thursday 7pm- monday 7 am yayayayayay

i haven't bought myself anything nice or that i really wanted in awhile so ...meet my new bff :)




i'm becoming addicted to shopping on ebay..i've never used it before this year and now i can't stop!

yay or nay?

beauty AND the beast ? :)

you need to say sorry to me before i will ever forgive you.

i requested info from a buncha schools..and i'm heavily considering kutztown..i felt so above it when i was applying and when i got my acceptance letter in the spring i hardly even opened the envelope and threw it out right away..i didn't really even look into the school or what it had and quickly tossed it aside..after seeing it with my own eyes and reading up on it i am going to reapply for medical technology and if i get in it could very well be the school i pull up to in the fall..no i am not going JUST because leigh is there..of course thats a huge reason...but just the school itself ..i felt like i belonged there when i visited and i loved how small it was nd how you could actually get to know all those people..at syracuse ...theres THOUSANDS and thousands of people walking around constantly..i feel so lost in the crowd and it just doesn't feel right here..i'll be close but not too close to my family..i'll be able to go up to see theresa easily..i won't be paying huge debts..and all of the other pluses that come with going there..(esp. my baby :) ) lol i'll have my car by then..i won't feel stuck..and i just think it's the right choice for once..i don't even know why i picked syracuse..i hardly read up on the program i'm in..didn't know too much about it..it had the highest tuition and least money given..yet i chose it and i still don't know why..i think i felt like i had to prove myself to people and my family..like i can go far away..i can go be independent and it be completely fine..that i was Alicia Aiello and could NT possibly go to a state school..and since it was the only "well known good school" was accepted to i pounced on it ..solely for it's name..i made such a mistake..but now with a clear head..i'm going to make the right decisions about my future.and i really feel like it's the place for me..so cross your fingers that i get in (again)

do you ever watch somethin on youtube or anywhere and are like i really wanna be friends with this person?

i have 99% made up my mind about transferring out of film..i'm so sick of the avante garde shit being pounded down my throat..and i feel like i'm just moving backwards..why am i spending 30000$ to RELEARN how to use final cut pro?! and to see my "oh so artsy" teachers movies where they are almost always naked and call it art?! i'm sick of the film program here..i'm actually sick of film..it's no more than a hobby now and no longer a passion i truly want to do for the rest of my life..i don't seemoney in it for my future so now i have decided to think more realistically/reasonably for myself that its not what i want to do or go to college for any longer..before i even came here or put money down here i was having doubts about my future in film..and nursing or something medical was always always always on my mind and i've decided to go into nursing now( orry for killing our dreams theresa! we can still take over ny together! lol :) )..so today i am going to my academic counselor and step 1: applying to be undecided next semester (since they dropped the nursing program here last year so i'm stuck here basically until my loans over at the end of the year) and step 2: looking into schools to transfer to..not as expensive..or that can be fully covered by financial aid..i'm in over my head with these 50000$ a year schools and these huge amount of money loans..so for my sake i'm going somewhere cheaper..i've grown used to SU ...i'm making friends and everything and the scenery is gorgeous..but now for once in my life i have to stop piggybacking off other people and their dreams and move onto my own

pros
doing a major i want/will make money doing
closer to home
closer to leigh
accessible to my friends
less money/no debt
no longer feeling stuck
MEDICAL INSURANCE

cons
reapplying to schools
money completely wasted for this year
missing the friends i've made/am making/will make by the summer
leaving the rose garden and waterfall i love :(

i'm rethinking this college thing..well right now..film is not what i want to do for the rest of my life anymore so i feel like until i figure it out or switch i'm wasting time and money..i feel like i shouldnt have forced my way into college when i was having so much trouble getting here ..i shouldv'e listened and dealt with my health stuff first..i don't feel like i should be here now and i feel so stuck

Nick and Norahs Infinite Playlist

So i joined this thing called FilmMetro and you get free ticket to screen movies before the come out..so i got to see Nick and Norah for free AND before anyone else :) it was soooo cute i loved it..oh and did you know Kat Dennings is from Philly?