okay so...alyssa told me she's "into me" now..and i'm assuming it's only because kim won't give her the time of day because she's nottttt gay..idk if i should be excited now or just not care lol..shes so sweet though..but has been talkin like shes lookin for a girlfriend..and i am so not ready to get back into anything like that yet..granted i'm over leigh..just i don't eve nwanna be taken right now.i'm enjoying being single..although valentines day is coming up and idk whats gonna happen with that..also i feel realllllly..really bad..so marie yeah..was hookin up with her before i came back to school..was diggin her like yeah but i'm over it and she totally wants me to be her girlfriend when i come back in the summer..ad still texts me all day with cute little things..ad the other night she's like "you go to gay bars and don't hookup with people" i as like " i don't go there intending to but shit happens" and she got upset..i am not in a commitment mindset..and i don't want to hurt anybody..because i know what its like and it sucks

..theres two lesbians sleepin in my bed lol so i'm awake ..tired..but awake..and thinking..